Peace

For me, I go through life as it leads me. I consider myself separate, never thought I belonged to anything or anyone. Freakishly enough, I never considered this as a problem. Maybe since I had gone through quite a long time of my life without much people around me or I had been let down by too many people on one too many occasions, either way I don’t consider this a problem.
I remember few incidents that I got disappointed because I was too attached to someone. Maybe those moments in time thought me to go solo. Life has gone through a long time, and I no longer give a thought to this anymore. I don’t get associated in groups formed in both work and studies; I don’t go out much, I don’t prefer to go to friends or relatives houses much. I take it they would not like me invading their life. Its like I have made peace with the way I got to live.
But lately few times this has become a problem. People acting as if I had disappointed them, which leaves me confused. Its not a matter to me that I do not participate in what others do, but apparently it does to them.
Life had molded me into something and im quite happy with that. I like being a private person at the same time a peoples person. I like it that I don’t have too many people to depend on when I do something. I like being selfish this way. And frankly I don’t care what others think or say. Either stay with me knowing the way I am or can leave. I had made peace with the fact that I cannot stop someone who wants to leave. Its easier to make peace with things I cannot fight or win.